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[23 Apr 2007|06:56pm] |
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April 24th[Tomorrow] - Would have been one year with Jared Matthew Adler.
Ok, enough of that.
Anyways, things have been pretty chill around this part of town. I been spending the usual [alot] of time with <3Max<3 & a litle bit of time with my friends, I miss RAP && ANT && everyone [DBL's] so I think we should absolutly hit up Dania this weekend when I don't work. ;D
I got a tattoo of a hachet man, but, I need to get it finished before I go ahead & post some wild provacative pictures. :D
Well, this update would be longer, more exciting, && actually worth reading if I didn't have to say farwell here & run off to work.. oh yeah, I got a job at a movie theater. :D
FIN.
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[28 Mar 2007|10:30pm] |
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Today I was told one of my friends like me, a guy who I thought WOULD NEVER like me, hmm the thing is before I got my new boyfriend I totally woulda tried to get to know his boy better to date him but now hes even more out of reach then I thought, at lleassxt I got ot give him a nickname before this all happened.
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[27 Mar 2007|10:55pm] |
On the rare occasions I update this lovely little livejournal of mine, I like ot inform you all fo the "haps" in my life so here goes.
I have a boyfriend, his name is Maxime[MAX] & he is not Jared but he make sme extremly happy & I love his family & friends, who treat me as one of there very own already. For me being happy is just as rare as the livejournal updates posted here.
Tool ticket are pretty much GONE & I will not be going ot see them any time soon, much to my dismay for I was longing to see my much loved band playing as a present for my brithday.
SPEAKING of my brithday which is on Thursday, I am no longer going on my roadtrip, seeing tool, getting a car, or my license, & I will not be skipping school to hang out with Jared. I had high hopes for this one kids, & they went down the potty faster then throw up after a crunk night on Dania Beach.
DBL's= my new "crew" so to speak, the Dania Beach Locals, whom I shall be spending most of the next few weekends with, there great people & are laid back having no expectations of me. I love DBL's. <3
Well hi-de-ho I'm going to sleep hoping not to have nightmare of Saw3 creeping threw my head.
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[13 Mar 2007|08:18pm] |
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I've met a boy. =0
He makes me smile..alot.
We have tons of stuffs in commen.
But hes really far from reach.
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[12 Mar 2007|05:11pm] |
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So, waste of my life & time Giovanni cheated on me this weekend with a so called "RED", now normally I'd be heartbroken but believe me he was not a heartthrob type of guy, so I really don't care.
&& Apparently I'm AM the new EMO.[cause it's the new rage to be a genre of music, just ask RAP.] <3
Anyways, after a rather long & halarious conversation with the illerate "RED", I think she got the concept that I could care less about her sex-copades[like escopades] with Giovanni.
In other news I've made a bunch of new & exciting friends over the past few weekends<3
Timothy-Hot faggot from Pridefest.
RAP-Michael, who gets a kick out of funny grammar like me, as well as is a Subway fiend.
Alex&Billy-Total Fam.
Devon-A girl who's like my total opposite but we get along.
Andy-Party boy.
Blondes-A bunch of them, at a party, boy they like to get drunk.
I hopefully will see these new friends more often, for they make my day brighter.
I applied for ajob at FitnessFirst, it's a gym. If I get the job I get free gym time & that means I'll be eating at D-lites more so I can eat low fat icecream while working out for free at my job. Get my fatass into shape nigga, or & tan cause theres a TANNING BED =D.
My bestfriends coming home soon <3 We're gonna get married one day, you'll all be invited.
I haven't spoken to Jared more then 3 or 4 words since we last saw eachother a few weeks ago. =/
I can't say I really miss him, I mean of course I do but my lifes getting pretty chill & in routine without him now.
I gotta get rid of my snakey...poor Tiny, someone found out about him being a "Pet" instead of a friend & now he must leave. =/
Um this weekend is the St.Davids carnival, who really wants to go?? I think we shoudl jsut go to the insane asylum instead.. or the beach as usual, unless we find a damn good party to hit up. =]
WHO WANTS TO GO TO THE BEACH ON FRIDAY??
Since theres no school =D *cough**cough* RAP..!
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| Valentines Day. |
[13 Feb 2007|08:09pm] |
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I aboslutly would rather kill myself then go to school on Vday. I hate seeing happy couples wandering the halls holding hands speneind there first or maybe there last Vday togehter. I'm single, but in love. I loveJAred MAtthew Adler still, with all my heart & & yet I'm still alone.
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[13 Dec 2006|09:17pm] |
Sugar bear, I'm worth all that.
Bitch i'll smack you call me that!
Do him what you did to me, with your tongue ring and your teeth.
Only when in private.
You think i wanna see his dick? Peace!
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[01 Dec 2006|02:21am] |
So pretty much, things are going better then ever.
The shows over, && that means free time, what I've been doing with it is crazy. Other then be possibly going crazy due to 2 lesbians, and J-rad finally confessing that he loves me while folding my laundry, I couldnt boast anymore.
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[22 Nov 2006|10:49pm] |
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Im a fuck up.
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[14 Nov 2006|04:42pm] |
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I love having a vagina but I hate having ovaries.
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[13 Nov 2006|01:15am] |
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If I have to kill someone I don't care.
For I swear to the holy mother of moises, I will be skinny.
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[13 Nov 2006|12:03am] |
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Life with J-rad is the best it's been in a while. I knew we could make "us" work agian after learnign from our seperate mistakes..
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[11 Nov 2006|06:17am] |
I have a boyfriend.
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[11 Nov 2006|04:54am] |
Here's a conversation I just had with my sister whom I have seen since I was 5 and have a horriblre past with becasue she and my so called family fucked up my life. I'm THUMPER she's LEZUIRE70.
LEZURE70 [11:01 P.M.]: I understand. When u are ready to talk to me, I am sure you will. You do have a family out here that does think about you. Things aren't always what they seem. Just don't forget me....I am here when and if you decide you want to talk........
"Thumper" [11:02 P.M.]: I just prefer not to speak to any of my so called siblings. Sorry.
LEZURE70 [11:03 P.M.]: I wish you didn't feel that way. It is not fair that I wasn't even given the chance to get to know you. I still have love for you in my heart. I only wish the best for you.
"Thumper" [11:03 P.M.]: Thanks, same to you. Goodbye Lisa.
LEZURE70 [11:04 P.M.]: I wish I had u in my life. I feel like I am an only child. Why can't you give me a chance?
LEZURE70 [11:05 P.M.]: My daughter doesn't even know any of her family. How fair is that. Don't you think that hurts too.
"Thumper" [11:06 P.M.]: She'll get over it just as I have Lisa. And find others to be her family.
LEZURE70 [11:06 P.M.]: It's not the same. I loved you since the day you were born. I know you are too old now to remember but it used to be me and you when you were born....
LEZURE70 [11:08 P.M.]: You used to be home with me. Mom and Robert worked and you were with me alot. I thought one day I would have my sister. I just knew life was crazy when you were born when I was already 20 years old. I just think that you should at least think about me and your neice every once in a while.
LEZURE70 [11:10 P.M.]: I know that we can't call each other family just because we share the same bloodline, but comeon.........I wanted to try to wait till you were older so that maybe you would understand.
LEZURE70 [11:12 P.M.]: I love mom too. I just made choices that we didn't agree on. I don't want to cause her anymore hurt, I am too old for that. I just wanna make sure we all always have a friend that we can count on. Who better than your family.
LEZURE70 [11:13 P.M.]: If you ever need me, I am not far. You would be surprised that we are very much alike in certain ways. Please don't count me out.
"Thumper" [11:16 P.M.]: Lisa, I understand. I understand you wanted nothing to do with me until now, and that my so called brother messed up my REAL family's ( me grandma and mom) life. One of those cars was supposed to be mine when I got older, I mean we have our own faincal stuff and we could have sold them to pay for my college but No, my so called family messed everything up, if I can pay for college it'll be a miracle
LEZURE70 [11:18 P.M.]: I just wanna make sure you are alright. I care about your well being. I knew mom would hold you down. But now your older and mom can only do so much..... I Love u!!! Please don't count me out. I am not rich. I can't help you financially, I know I would if I could, but I still have love 4 u...
"Thumper" [11:19 P.M.]: Stop with the "i love you", you don't know me.
LEZURE70 [11:20 P.M.]: Can u please just try to have some type of relationship with me. I am not asking for us to be sisters just like that, but I would like to be friends friends.... I love the person I remember before you were taken from my life. It was not all my fault. I want you to know.
"Thumper" [11:21 P.M.]: You love the little child, no BABY I was. I am 16 years old. I shoudl have a car to drive, and a biological family to count on. I'm more then happy and content with my life, without a car, no college fund, and a REAL family though not blood to knwo if there for me.
"Thumper" [11:21 P.M.]: is*
LEZURE70 [11:22 P.M.]: I am trying to get to know you. It is so hard. I had no idea that you would not understand that I did not do this by myself. You are older and becoming a woman. I know you have to understand, I did not have it perfect either. I had a black child against the wishes of all my family. I had to go with my heart and it cost me you and mom.
LEZURE70 [11:23 P.M.]: I know that u should have all those things.
"Thumper" [11:23 P.M.]: Why is is suddenly during the pat few or so, you are begging for my friendship? You've been fine after so many years.
"Thumper" [11:23 P.M.]: PAst few years or so*
LEZURE70 [11:24 P.M.]: I am fine. I just thought I would wait till u were older so that you would understand my side. I never wanted to lose my sister, or my mother for that fact.
"Thumper" [11:25 P.M.]: Is it becasue you see that your child is an outcast? I'm sorry if she is, that was your own mistake for needing love os badly you went out of our race. I am happy and content with every aspect of my life, I am sosrry you arent.
"Thumper" [11:26 P.M.]: I dont' see how being my "friend" will complete your life, your in your 30's Lisa, move on out of the past.
LEZURE70 [11:27 P.M.]: I was hoping that maybe you would see that I never tried to not have you in my life, and that life just happened out of my control. My child is not an outcast. Is that what u think? I know I am in my 30's. I am not asking that you complete my life. I am not trying to move on. I am happy with my life. I just have a place in my heart for you and our mother that can't be replaced. Is that so hard to believe?
"Thumper" [11:28 P.M.]: AFter 16 years. Yes.
"Thumper" [11:29 P.M.]: OUtcast, yes. She is not white in a white family. How more outcast can you get?
LEZURE70 [11:31 P.M.]: Real life kicks your ass when your tryin to raise a child by yourself. Come on lex, She has another side of the family too. Do you not accept that? Are you mad because she is black? I guess I don't understand. I was raised that way but it is irrelevant to what is real. So what if she is black? That is an excuse for a fucked up way of thinking.
LEZURE70 [11:33 P.M.]: I know you are better than that way of thinking. You saw her. She is a part of me. I will never regret that.
"Thumper" [11:34 P.M.]: Fanstastic Liza. congrats. But I persaonally coudl care less thats she black, for I don't care much about anything my so called siblings or "family" do. It's not my life its yours and hers, and theres. Like I've said before I am happy and content and don't anymore firneds or family, due to the over abundance I have already.
"Thumper" [11:35 P.M.]: As for my way of thinking, I know teenagers mixed races, and they are NOT happy for there are not excepted witht eh black nor the whites, why you would do that to a child exspessaly in a racist state I will never know.
LEZURE70 [11:36 P.M.]: I just wanted you to make your own decisions. I never thought you would hate me for that. You are so angry at me for something that was not entirely my faiult. \
LEZURE70 [11:36 P.M.]: I don't understand why u can blame me for it all.
"Thumper" [11:36 P.M.]: For what Lisa?
LEZURE70 [11:37 P.M.]: It would make my life a little more complete if I could at least have some sort of relationship with u.
"Thumper" [11:37 P.M.]: Why must you reiterate yourself?
"Thumper" [11:38 P.M.]: Obviously I'm not giving in. Give up. I don't need another relationship in my life, especially from someone who never took time to think about her actions as a mature person, or consider the consequences.
LEZURE70 [11:41 P.M.]: What does that mean? I thought about it. How would you feel if mom was having another baby when you were 20. By then you are trying to live your own life and with the problems that come with it, it is hard..........I never thought I was different. I just thought that maybe you would understand when u got older. I will never give up. I never have. I can't believe that you blame me.
LEZURE70 [11:41 P.M.]: I am not the only one at fault.
LEZURE70 [11:41 P.M.]: I couldn't even get close to you or know where you were at.\
LEZURE70 [11:42 P.M.]: It's just not fair.
"Thumper" [11:42 P.M.]: You may not htink this is my own decision but hunny it is. I have people who I consider my siblings, who for the past 10 years have been by my side through thick and thin. Mom, has never stopped me from writing or expressing my own thoughts, never has she bad mouthed anyone. she preferss not to speak of what I call our non exsistant disfunical family . You keep taling about whos at fault for what? I could care less about whos to blame for nothing. I'm happy I'm sorry yoiur not. but I cant help you.
"Thumper" [11:42 P.M.]: You made your choices, deal witht eh consequnces. Good bye Lisa, I'm done. Give up and get over it.
LEZURE70 [11:43 P.M.]: Come on lex. How fair is that. I am not blaming mom. I am just wanting you to give me a chance.
"Thumper" [11:44 P.M.]: It may be harsh but its the truth. I dont care about your, your daughter, or that disfunitcal family in the middle of the heartland.
LEZURE70 [11:45 P.M.]: I don't blame anyone. I blame circumstance. I know you are doing fine without me. I laugh at the disfunctional family myself. I just think that you are wrong.............I am not asking for the world.
LEZURE70 [11:45 P.M.]: Our fucked up family has nothing to do with now and me and u!!!
LEZURE70 [11:47 P.M.]: Why can't u understand where I am coming from?
"Thumper" [11:47 P.M.]: Your asking for something of which I can not give you. I cant give you your perfect family. I dont want to , and wouldnt if I could. Your cursing proves you are not one I want a relationships with for I do not assocaite with potty mouths. I was sure Robert had told you of this, for you are the best of friends. BTW How the cars? Sexy still
LEZURE70 [11:47 P.M.]: You have it all wrong
LEZURE70 [11:48 P.M.]: Where are u getting your information/
LEZURE70 [11:48 P.M.]: That is not how it is
"Thumper" [11:48 P.M.]: I'm sorry but I have a life to get to, one of which I am the happiest to have. My friends have just arrived so I am off to live the life I love.
LEZURE70 [11:49 P.M.]: I am not best of friends with anyone...I only get to talk to them once in a while
LEZURE70 [11:49 P.M.]: Damn lex.
LEZURE70 [11:49 P.M.]: I didn't think you would be mad at me.
LEZURE70 [11:49 P.M.]: I am sorry.
LEZURE70 [11:49 P.M.]: It is horrible that you feel that way.
"Thumper" [11:50 P.M.]: You sound like a high school girl. " I didn't think you'd be mad" Come on your 30, cant you think of any invigorating words to use, to describe what you THINK I am.
LEZURE70 [11:50 P.M.]: Please think about it.
"Thumper" [11:51 P.M.]: I have, and I am content with ym answer. I don't care about you or them, or your negro daughter. Goodbye. Lose myt screenname and while your at it, take your begging for love else where, casu eI will not takje time out of my day to listen ot reply to it agian.
LEZURE70 [11:52 P.M.]: Lex, Don't be so hard.
"Thumper" [11:52 P.M.]: Goodbye, my friends await my entertainment
LEZURE70 [11:52 P.M.]: Why are u so hateful?
LEZURE70 [11:52 P.M.]: Have fun.....be safe.
"Thumper" [11:53 P.M.]: I learned it from the best, my disfucntical heartland family. =D
LEZURE70 [11:53 P.M.]: \Don't think I will ever stop thinkin' bout ya.
LEZURE70 [11:53 P.M.]: Its not that easy.
LEZURE70 [11:53 P.M.]: I get the picture
"Thumper" [11:53 P.M.]: Try a therapist, Help get everything off your chest.
LEZURE70 [11:54 P.M.]: Funny
LEZURE70 [11:54 P.M.]: HATE me for someone elses choices.
"Thumper" [11:55 P.M.]: Um you are the one with the negro baby, but who am I to judge..... she looks like a tall white basketball player, opps oxmoron much.
LEZURE70 [11:55 P.M.]: I know you don't mean that......
LEZURE70 [11:56 P.M.]: What ever you feel in your heart.
"Thumper" [11:56 P.M.]: Good lord, women.... get over it, I dont like you or care about you, and NEVER WILL.
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[03 Nov 2006|01:52am] |
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I went to an abandoned insane asylum last night. It was amazing. I think I'm going to camp out there this weekend or whenever I get off frounded. Despite almost getting shot by a bunch of chicos and making a bitch piss herself. I think I'm in love with this building full of holes and memories decorated by graffiti. <3
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[27 Oct 2006|11:53pm] |
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[26 Oct 2006|07:12pm] |
Basics.
I'm not really happy, I haven't been for a while now, despite the front I've put up I'm slowly showing through. I'm not sure why I'm so unhappy, I have waht many would consider a fantastic life; a boyfriend, a mother, friends[if you wanna call them that], ok grades, a home, and some money. But to me none of that matters, that's not what makes me happy. I want to go out and have fun with my grils like I used to before they deciced getting facked up was teh "fun" think to do. I want people to call me wanting to hang out it WAS like that but no longer is. I'm so desperate that I've even posted bullitens about hanging out and still got NO replies. Seriously on MYSPACE- Sad I know.
The show.
Rehersal is consuming my life and stressing me out. My face looks like a facking pepperoni pizza and I wanna cry non-stop. We open November 8th with a in school show and run for 2 weeks.[I hope IAN comes to see it.] I don't plan on going to the cast party cause I'm not really friends with anyone in the cast anymore [ I mean I love Bryon, and Alvaro to death but even Mario seems to have distanced himself from me.] If I do go I'm afriad like last year I will feel ackward and do somthing stupid. [ Not as stupid as last year I hope.]
Ciggerates, Pot, and Alcohol.
Everyday I think, maybe I should go back to my old juggalette way of life. Sleeping where ever my heads happens to fall when I run out of energy, getting facked up all the time and just chillen all day every day. Honestly drugs never hurt me or caused me problems. I quit everything myself because I saw others getting hurt and I was afriad I was next. But now I feel like I don't care anymore. I need my carefree relaxed chill fun life back.
School.
With my "ok" grades, I'm still heading no where with my life. I'll be damned lucky to go to collage. But really I don't care anymore.
Job.
I need one, I plan on applying at Target Saturday.
Jared.
I miss him so much.
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[25 Oct 2006|09:14pm] |
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So pretty much, things are insane in the membrane.
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[24 Oct 2006|02:29am] |
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Besides doing 9 pages front and back of American History homework, life is really nto as boring as usual, I've been dating a kid for less then a week and he's already cheated on me. AMAZING.
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